Ben has a girlfriend now... when he told me my heart sank into my stomach and I immediately wanted to cry... still do. I know it would never work with us but deep down I want it to. If we lived closer to one another I think it would work...I just don't think we will ever have that chance. And now I'm not sure what to do...my one single guy who liked me has a girlfriend...Chris is a freak...Joe won't talk to me unless it's about the divorce or the house...Scott wants to be friends and I for the first time since the divorce have no one. It was nice knowing Ben was single and liked me and wanted me...but now...not even he wants me. Not a single man wants to talk to me or be with me.
So I just finished balling my eyes out in the bathroom...how stupid is this?!? Why am I this upset about Ben? I thought I was over him? I guess my brain gets it but my heart refuses to accept it.
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