He is Right

Alright Ben is right I need some time to deal with my shit before I get involved with another guy. I need to be ok by myself instead of trying to find a guy to plug into my life to replace Joe because maybe that life I was living with Joe isn't what I really want...maybe I want something else...I don't know I haven't been able to experience much so now is my change to experience everything! I still want to move some place and if that is the Virginia or DC area then that would work because I would still have till the end of the summer till he moves there and then when I am ready he is there as an option but there are a lot of very well off or working on it guys that live in DC plus the military guys so...I think that could work. I went out and explore Snoqualmie Pass on my own today and that's what I need to do...thats what I did when I was at the cabin for the summer...when I was at WSU by my self and when I lived in Spokane before Joe came. I need to start being more independent and not be scared about it. I need to not be scared to do what I want. This is my time!