So yesterday I finally around 9:00pm his time said "you mentioned you where going to text me when you landed...just want to make sure everything is ok." and he texted me back "Hey yea sorry." So that's it...I need to know what his intentions are...what he wants out of this and how he views me. Even if they are not the answers or response I want I need to know so I can either tone back my expectations and feelings or whatever... I need to know. So at 8:03am I texted him saying "I know your probably busy with the investigation so just when ever you get a chance...Since we have a history together I think it might be good for us to finish that conversation on what we are, what we want, what we mean to each other, etc so that we are both on the same page with thoughts, expectations, feelings, etc"...it's now 10:04am and I have heard nothing back. I am trying not to freak out about it but I am. I don't want him to think i'm being clingy or pushy or anything I just for my own mental and emotional well being need to know. I mean I understand our relationship really hasn't changed at all except for the fact that now I am single and we actually could be together... and it wouldn't be such a big deal if over the last couple years he didn't talk about wanting to be with me...wanting to date me...hell after the wedding he talked about how he wanted to see me in a wedding dress because I would be his. It wouldn't be such a big deal except he tells me that he loves me and that I am his. Am I his? Or is that just how he likes to talk during sex? Did he really miss me or is that just something he says to people he hasn't seen in a while? I need clarification because I have waaaay to many questions going through my head for me to handle.
At 11:32am he finally texted me back and said "Yeah we can finish that talk later. No Problem" and then he volunteered information without me asking about the investigation! So that is good I think? I don't know I wish I didn't over analyse EVERYTHING!
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