My Brand

I've been feeling better the last couple days... I still haven't talked to Ben since Friday but I think this break is actually good for me. I think I was using Ben as my almost comfort blanket when shit went bad with Joe and looking to him for all my answers and now that I have had some space from him and some space from seeing and talking to Joe I actually feel kinda good... and dare I say it some times normal. I think I am figuring out what my "brand" is (can you tell I've been working on my photography business? lol) and I think I am starting to feel good about it. I think I feel a little better about what my look is and I know I feel great about going to the gym and all the healthy new recipes I have been cooking. So what is this Jilian Brand you ask?

1. Cooking and photographing it
2. Working out at the gym
3. Photographing whether for the business or just going out and taking pics for my self
4. Traveling whether it's an hour drive or a plane trip
5. My green bag and my free people clothes
6. My pottery barn and William and Sonoma stuff
7. Eating natural and growing my own food
8. My pets
9. Writing and learning/ trying new things
10. I like being with people but need to make sure I also keep my own personal space (ie: not living with my dad and sister even though it would be a money saver I think it would be a Jilian loser)


I am working on being confident again like I used to...not caring so much about finding "the one" but having fun with dating. I need to have fun again...I'm 28 years old and was living the life of a 40 year old because my husband was boring. I am Jilian Clair Winterfeld and I am starting life number two! And it's going to be fucking awesome. I have been applying to some jobs in Washington DC because the drive to Quantico is only an hour...the drive to Baltimore was only an hour or two and the flight to New York was like $98 one way which is totally do-able for a weekend trip. I have applied to Sirius Radio as a music director and another radio station as an afternoon DJ because well lets be honest I have the most experience in that industry and it sounds "cool". That and I can't say I'm moving to Washington DC for a receptionist job and what else do I know how to do? That's the sucky part about the job market these days everyone wants tons of experience for a job that pays crap. I don't get it. But while I am there I can then work on my photography thing and maybe even try to do some traveling for it. I still need to talk to WGU about the masters in teaching...I am wondering if I have to stay in WA for that or if I could go some place? The only catch to that now is the 3 months of student teaching without pay...not sure how I'm going to do that unless 1. I save a bunch of money to survive on or 2. I live with my dad until I finish my masters...meh