No shits given

So apparently Joe doesn't give a shit about me...I think his exact words where "It's your life not mine".  Wow talk about douche! But when I asked him if he was seeing anyone he said no...he said he is enjoying just being him for now. He then told me how he bought a new coat and is going to go snowmobile on Monday. He then asked me making sure I knew that he didn't care and I said kinda...and he goes what's his name....and I said why you don't care. So then he told me how he is going to drive to and from Wisconsin for Christmas by himself in the escape. Talk about an idiot! He then asked if the guy was in the military and I said I didn't think you cared. And then he told me how his attorney charges like some $200 and hour and I said mine costs more then that...which she does. He then asked if he was a marine and I said why? And he said because he hates marines. So obviously he thinks it's Ben and obviously that bothers him. But then he said that he is talking to Amanda at work because she doesn't work at the office anymore but still works for NGAW. And I was like REALLY?!? And he was like it's work stuff only and there are other people on the emails. Bitch it doesn't matter who is on the emails in fact that makes it WAY worse!! Because everyone at his work knows he was cheating on me with her! He is so going to fuck him self over...and I'm just going to be sitting here saying..."I told you so". But the main thing I got out of tonight is that he hasn't cared what happened to me for a very long time. So today...December 11, 2005 I no longer care what happens to Joe. He could fall off the face of the earth and I wouldn't care less. In fact that would make my life soon much easier! In fact I told him tonight that I had lost 13lbs and he didn't say anything other then "did I tell you my time for that race?" So in return I didn't give him a good job or thats great either.

So now that Joe is dead in my life. Now I get to focus on me. And these are in NO order...

1. Get back into great shape
2. Eat healthy
3. A. Get that Masters degree  
    B. Get a teaching job
4. Find a good man or date Ben if he is that man ;)
5. Save money
6. Find a place to live
7. Pay off all debt
8. Make new single friends

I'm going to be ok. This new life is going to be better then anything I could of had with Joe. Yes it will suck more before it gets better but after the last month I am strong! I am ready for it. I can survive and adult on my own and I think I will do a pretty damn good job of it...why? Because I have been living on my own for the last month and he hasn't. I have been accepting the quiet and he hasn't. And it's going to be a rude slap in the face of reality when it does. That and I actually have a brain.